The post you may not want to read :-)

So, I've been told by a couple people that I needed to update. You see, it's been a couple of weeks because if I had written earlier you would have gotten a post all about peuk, like the day I was holding Emma's hair back so she could peuk in the toilet when I realized that I either needed to push her away or use the trashcan for myself, simultaneous peuk, all done while I was holding back Emma's hair...I'm such a multitasker, or how about the day that we were driving and she informs me she needs to throw up so I hand her a doll car seat, it was either that or my purse I mean seriously what would you have chosen! :-) So as you can see you really wouldn't have wanted to read "that" post ;-) Things are looking up now, after a week of being sick Emma seems to be feeling a little better, no fever today at least.
I did have a dr. appt Monday and things look good we've made it to 14 weeks! The farther along I get I seem to get more fearful of all the things that could go wrong so please pray for peace and for an uneventful pregnancy....and maybe that this tumor would just disappear, That would be great!

Emma's 3

Happy Birthday to my baby girl, who ummm isn't really a baby anymore! I can't believe you are three today. You were born during one of the most difficult times in my life, Grendaddy had become very sick and Granny Woodard was also very sick. I drove to the hospital most everyday (you screamed the whole drive, you hated riding in carseats) and we would sit all day. You were so very special to your Grendaddy, his eyes lit up everytime I walked in the room with you and Becca. The first time you met Granny Woodard she was in the hospital, she never got to hold you but I held you up to her and told her all about her second great grandaughter. You are what got me through those days, I had never really lost anyone and to discover I was losing two of the most important people in my life....to say I was distraught would be an understatement. I wanted to be strong but with you I didn't have to be, I would hold you late at night and cry about all I was losing, then I would look at you and see all that I still had. You amaze me everyday, you love to learn and are very busy keeping up with your big sister, you are incredibly independant and very stubborn all traits, that although hard to deal with at times, are also traits I admire. You are also loving, you will wake up sometimes when your Daddy comes in
from work, you immediatly run for a hug and then sit on the couch in his lap while he reads you a story... or two. I thank God for you everyday, Happy Birthday sweet girl.

Moments

Life is full of all kinds of moments, happy, sad, moments you would rather forget shall I go on.... but one of my favorites is those moments that make you go Awww. Yesterday as the girls and I waited in the car at dance class they noticed a man standing on the side of the road. If you live out here then you have seen them all dressed up as the statue of liberty right in time for tax season. Well we were discussing that no he wasn't crazy as they called him (crazy man) but I explained that it was his job to stand out there and hold his sign so people would come to his business. It was quiet for a minute and we moved on to another subject, then Emma said
E: "Do we need to pray for him"
Me: for who
E: for the man out there
Me: Of course we can pray for him, but why?
E: Cause Momma its really cold and he does not have a jacket on
AWWWW
What a special moment to sit in the car with my two girls and pray for someone because they felt the need to. When we said Amen, I wondered if that man could feel it, could he feel that someone at that moment was praying for him, I like to believe he could. Prayer is such a powerful thing, when we pray, but also when we pray for others. I know that the prayers that have been sent up on my behalf are what got me through some very hard moments in my life and continue to get me through all kinds of MOMENTS.


Funny moment.... Emma also asked me who God was to Jesus, before I could try to explain that Becca said I think its probably his grandpa. Isn't it great how many moments God gives us!

Things they Say

Conversation between me and Emma, We had just finished breakfast and Emma says...
E: Mommy can I have a chocolate chip cookie
Me: No, not right now
E: (hands on hips in a level voice she states a fact) Mom, I'm getting angry at you.
I had to turn my head so I wouldn't laugh, seriously, she's TWO