Thanksgiving

I wanted my sister to write a guest post telling this story since I wasn't actually there and well I'm not sure I can do it justice.... but I shall try.....so here is a texting conversation I had Thanksgiving morning.
Keelie: Basil ate the turkey!
(Basil Is Keelies dog)
Me: No way (I was pretty sure she was joking)
Keelie: No response
Me: Are you laughing as hard as I'm laughing
Keelie: I would be but she ate the chocolate pie too.

By this time I am crying I'm lauging so hard, and I'm trying to figure out the mood at Grannys house, were they laughing, crying, mad hmmm.

Keelie: Granny's crying she's laughing so hard and she's taking pictures
Me: Wow this will be a Thanksgiving we'll never forget!

So for Thanksgiving my Dad found a cajun turkey at HEB and Basil got the turkey that my Mom had worked on all day....Oh the memories!! Hope everyone had a great Thanksgiving I know we did :-)

My Babies

Today I am thankful for the four babies that I no longer hold on this earth. For the sake of this post I will group them together....although to me they were each special and unique in their own way.
If I had not had you all I would have never known how strong I can be. Because of you I learned what it meant to truly trust God. Because of you I learned what it meant to hold on to hope when my situation felt hopeless. Because of you I learned what faith really was. Because of you I realize now how precious life is, I hold onto my girls a little tighter, and play with them a little longer.
Not a day goes by that I don't think of you, and dream about what you might have been, and although I only briefly held two of you in my arms I will hold you in my heart forever.

Emma

Today I am thankful for Emma. You are an absolutely amazing girl, you make me laugh everyday. At three you are strong and independant, you like to do everything on your own....from fixing your sandwiches, to getting your clothes on. You are a little protector, you watch over everybody including your older sister....You point out any and every injustice happening to anyone anywhere. you are sensitive to everyone, if you see someone who is sad you give hugs to them. You love animals of all kinds, and would love to have a horse of your own someday. There are so many things I could write about you, as I sit here my mind and heart are full with love for you and everything that you are....You are amazing and God gave you to us....Your Daddy and I are so blessed to have you in our lives.

Becca

Today I am thankful for my first born Becca. You came into this world and our lives were changed forever. You amaze me everyday with the things you do and say. Although many people see you as shy and reserved, that is not the little girl I see or deal with everyday. You are spunky and sure of yourself, you are not talked into things easily. You love to learn new things and at 5 you are pretty sure you know it all! :-) You love to play outside, you enjoy having your friends over, and you are becoming pretty bossy :-) I could go on and on about everything you are because your Daddy and I love every thing that makes up you. You are an amazing girl and I can't wait to see what this life has in store for you.

The man I married

Today I am thankful for my husband. We have known eachother our whole lives....seriously. He is truly my best friend and I don't know what I would do without him. When we got married six years ago we never would have dreamed that we would walk some of the roads we've been down, but we have stuck together and I can honestly say our marriage is stronger for them.
He is an amazing Dad, the girls adore him, and he always takes the time to read them stories, dress their dolls and just sit and play with them.
He has cried with me over the babies we've lost, he has dreamt with me of what the future will hold for our family. He has held me up when I was pretty sure my world was crashing around me.
He's a great cook (which is sometimes annoying...cause I'm really not) He can do anything....even things like make little girl hairbows....I'm thinking about getting him to figure out tutu's next :-)
So today I am Thankful for the man I married, for everything he was, for everything he is and for everything he is yet to be.

Not Me Monday

It's been so long I could probably fill a page on everything that I ummm did not do....but hey lets go ahead and confess a few.
I may or may not have baked cookies, pies and other scrumptious deserts every morning this past week just so the oven could warm the house up...we are learning to live without central heat and umm yea not really loving waking up in a cold house.
I did not hold Saturday school (I mean really, they don't know you're out of school on Saturday :-)
I did not walk into my girls room to find them with the salt shaker....shaking salt into their hands and eating it.
Oh I could go on and on, like the day I did not open a can of soup to feed to the dogs because I was out of dogfood, or the cookies I let the girls to make that turned into a pan of sprinkles....cookies with your sprinkles anyone???

We have definitely been having fun in the Parker household! I love this time of year, Thanksgiving and Christmas. I'm not going to lie and say that it's all great, I keep coming across things that make me think about Lilly and how we should be preparing for a new baby. I see toys I would love to buy and baby's first Christmas tees and it's like a punch in the gut it seems like a lifetime ago that I held her for the first and last time and it really makes me sad. So if you will keep me in your prayers this Holiday season, because as much as I love this time of year it's sometimes hard to keep a happy face on.

Now in the spirit of Thanksgiving starting later today I am going to try (if the girls will let me sit long enough){grin} to write something that I am Thankful for everyday until Thursday so stay tuned....